Saturday, January 04, 2003
Hello to all. I would like to apologize to everyone for a mistake I made in my last posting. I gave credit to blink 182 for the song nice guys finish last. When in fact greenday wrote it. I am very sorry and I hope that I will not do that again.
Every one has heard the saying, you do not know what you got until u lose it. Well unfortunately, I have learned that. That is why today I will be talking about.
#4- the dumped- now I am not just talking about some one who was dumped and bounced back. I am talking about those people who are dumped and never returned to the relationship stage. When this happens, it is a sad thing. I know one girl in mind who uses to be a very good friend of mine. She danced with me in some master classes and things of that nature. She went out with this guy who at the time seemed to be a great guy for her. However, she eventually found out that he had been not only cheating on her, but that she was the girl he was using to cheat with on his previous girlfriend. When she found out about this, it tore her apart. She broke down and was never the same again. That was almost three years ago, and she still has not even gone out on a date with some one else sense that. She just sits there and watches others date, and is always there when you need some one to point out the flaws in some one. That is why that kind of person is an AUIDANCE MEMBER. But not just any audience member, but the ones who use to be in the circus and are now grumpy old people who sit and watch and never go back until the choke on their popcorn and die.
When I was a freshman in high school, I met the girl who I thought I would never get. She was everything I would ever, and still ever, wants in a girl. She was funny, beautiful as an angel, sang like one too, played guitar, acted, and above all else she really liked me. She was amazing. Moreover, her parents were great, and her siblings. However, things got really bad when we went to this retreat with her youth group. When we got there, she was very afraid because she did not know what would happen if her youth minister knew, we were going out (this was based on the fact that if he knew, he would probably wouldn’t lets us ever out of his site in fear we would make a baby). Because of this, she did not really talk to me much on the way up, actually she choose to ride in a different car. When we got there, she did not smile or even look at me. For about two days of the five-day retreat, she did not even talk to me. I had no idea what was wrong; all I knew was that the girl I would do anything for was pretty much ignoring me. Well, true to form, on the second day a friend of hers told me that she decided to break up with me because of some un-known reason. When I heard this I could feel my heart beat, raise, mostly with anger. I did not know what to do, I did not bother to talk to her about this, mistake number one, and so I sat alone playing mind puzzles by the fire. This was a new girl to the church there also, and for some reason she didn’t fit in with the group very much, so we started to talk some and she ended up hitting on me really hard, so naturally I hit on her back, mistake number two. One thing led to another and we ended up kissing, I say kissing, I mean her sticking her tongue half way down my throat, mistake number three through infinity. My girlfriend saw us doing this, and she than decided to tell me that she never broke up with me and that she hated me now. I did not know what to do, or say. I was torn apart. The next day of the retreat, when everyone was having the time of his or her lives with God, I was in the corner begging him to strike me with lighting. For months, I mean months, after that, I would still find my self in bed not being able to sleep because every time I closed my eyes I would see both my heart and minkus’s heart in pieces. It took over eight months for me to even considering going out with a girl again. Moreover, when I did, I was afraid that I would break her heart like I did to minkus.
The moral of the story is this, mistakes happen, and we all make big ones. Nevertheless, the true measure of a man is not how he falls, but how he gets back up.
THE GREATEST BATTLE FOR MAN IS NOT AGAINST AN ARMY OR AN ANOTHER PERSON, BUT WITH HIMSELF.
remember to send any and all comments to balletguy16@yahoo.com
Every one has heard the saying, you do not know what you got until u lose it. Well unfortunately, I have learned that. That is why today I will be talking about.
#4- the dumped- now I am not just talking about some one who was dumped and bounced back. I am talking about those people who are dumped and never returned to the relationship stage. When this happens, it is a sad thing. I know one girl in mind who uses to be a very good friend of mine. She danced with me in some master classes and things of that nature. She went out with this guy who at the time seemed to be a great guy for her. However, she eventually found out that he had been not only cheating on her, but that she was the girl he was using to cheat with on his previous girlfriend. When she found out about this, it tore her apart. She broke down and was never the same again. That was almost three years ago, and she still has not even gone out on a date with some one else sense that. She just sits there and watches others date, and is always there when you need some one to point out the flaws in some one. That is why that kind of person is an AUIDANCE MEMBER. But not just any audience member, but the ones who use to be in the circus and are now grumpy old people who sit and watch and never go back until the choke on their popcorn and die.
When I was a freshman in high school, I met the girl who I thought I would never get. She was everything I would ever, and still ever, wants in a girl. She was funny, beautiful as an angel, sang like one too, played guitar, acted, and above all else she really liked me. She was amazing. Moreover, her parents were great, and her siblings. However, things got really bad when we went to this retreat with her youth group. When we got there, she was very afraid because she did not know what would happen if her youth minister knew, we were going out (this was based on the fact that if he knew, he would probably wouldn’t lets us ever out of his site in fear we would make a baby). Because of this, she did not really talk to me much on the way up, actually she choose to ride in a different car. When we got there, she did not smile or even look at me. For about two days of the five-day retreat, she did not even talk to me. I had no idea what was wrong; all I knew was that the girl I would do anything for was pretty much ignoring me. Well, true to form, on the second day a friend of hers told me that she decided to break up with me because of some un-known reason. When I heard this I could feel my heart beat, raise, mostly with anger. I did not know what to do, I did not bother to talk to her about this, mistake number one, and so I sat alone playing mind puzzles by the fire. This was a new girl to the church there also, and for some reason she didn’t fit in with the group very much, so we started to talk some and she ended up hitting on me really hard, so naturally I hit on her back, mistake number two. One thing led to another and we ended up kissing, I say kissing, I mean her sticking her tongue half way down my throat, mistake number three through infinity. My girlfriend saw us doing this, and she than decided to tell me that she never broke up with me and that she hated me now. I did not know what to do, or say. I was torn apart. The next day of the retreat, when everyone was having the time of his or her lives with God, I was in the corner begging him to strike me with lighting. For months, I mean months, after that, I would still find my self in bed not being able to sleep because every time I closed my eyes I would see both my heart and minkus’s heart in pieces. It took over eight months for me to even considering going out with a girl again. Moreover, when I did, I was afraid that I would break her heart like I did to minkus.
The moral of the story is this, mistakes happen, and we all make big ones. Nevertheless, the true measure of a man is not how he falls, but how he gets back up.
THE GREATEST BATTLE FOR MAN IS NOT AGAINST AN ARMY OR AN ANOTHER PERSON, BUT WITH HIMSELF.
remember to send any and all comments to balletguy16@yahoo.com
Thursday, January 02, 2003
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Nice guys finish last, your running out of gas; your sympathy will get you left behind. - Blink 182
Well here, we are again, and today is my favorite, because it is the category I am in.
#3- NICE GUYS- Yes nice guys, well I can’t tell you how many times I have been told that I am such a nice and sweet guy, that I am the kind of guy that they want to date, or their daughter to date. Nevertheless, does it ever happen, nope? Now why is this, what is it about a guy like me that makes girls want to be my friend but not my girl friend. Well it is because why would a girl commit to a guy that they can get with out it. By that I mean that a girl would keep me as a friend, so she can get the nice things I do, and the part of me to be there when she breaks up with some one, and at the same time have some guy who is just looks. That is why NICE GUYS = ESPU elephant shit picker-upper
I remember one time really clearly. I was a junior in high school, there was a girl I knew peaty well, and she was amazing. She was good looking, smart, funny, and she was into performing arts. However, the downfall was that she led me on so that I would always be there for her when she was dumped by the cannon boys. When it happened, I always came to her, told her it was alright, that it was their fault not hers, that she was great wonderful and that any guy who broke up with her is not worthy of her love. But every time it happen she told me that she wants to date a guy like me, or me, but when she decided she was ready to date again, she would go after those cannon boys. That is why I can honestly say NICE GUYS FINISH LAST.
Well here, we are again, and today is my favorite, because it is the category I am in.
#3- NICE GUYS- Yes nice guys, well I can’t tell you how many times I have been told that I am such a nice and sweet guy, that I am the kind of guy that they want to date, or their daughter to date. Nevertheless, does it ever happen, nope? Now why is this, what is it about a guy like me that makes girls want to be my friend but not my girl friend. Well it is because why would a girl commit to a guy that they can get with out it. By that I mean that a girl would keep me as a friend, so she can get the nice things I do, and the part of me to be there when she breaks up with some one, and at the same time have some guy who is just looks. That is why NICE GUYS = ESPU elephant shit picker-upper
I remember one time really clearly. I was a junior in high school, there was a girl I knew peaty well, and she was amazing. She was good looking, smart, funny, and she was into performing arts. However, the downfall was that she led me on so that I would always be there for her when she was dumped by the cannon boys. When it happened, I always came to her, told her it was alright, that it was their fault not hers, that she was great wonderful and that any guy who broke up with her is not worthy of her love. But every time it happen she told me that she wants to date a guy like me, or me, but when she decided she was ready to date again, she would go after those cannon boys. That is why I can honestly say NICE GUYS FINISH LAST.
" I held a jewl in my fingers, and went to sleep, the day was warm, the winds were prosy, i said, twill keep.......... W woke- and shide my honest fingers, the gem was gone. And now, and Amethyst remembreance of love, is all i own." - Emily
With that short poem i start tonight, with this lesson for today. This is one i particurly hate, this is the kind of person i wish never had been born. but as i say that, i remember that at some point in your life you will become the one thing u hate the most, for at least for a momment.
#2- the PLAYERS- oh well, as i said, i hate this kind of people. They move like they own the world, walking over who ever the want. to many times i have seen a player come in, pick thier target, get whatever they want, and than leave. for some reason there are alot of guys who want to be players, mainly becuz they feel that they are going to get the upper hand on the gurls, for a short while they can control the gurl, not the other way around, like i was saying yesterday. i believe that guys who are players are in fact suffering from some kind of social attachment problem. I say this becuz they know what they do to gurls when they use them like they do, but yet they do not care cuz they feel that at some point in time it happend to them and they are trying to revenge that. they go from gurl to gurl, never staying to long, and when the get what they want, they are gone just as fast as they came. that is why
PLAYERS = CANNON BOYS
and now for the example... I remember very clearly when i was a freshman in HS. there was this guy who was a "mutual friend" to alot of people. he was what you call a "good looking guy" i geuss, or so i am told. he would go to differant youth groups and functions where gurls would be at from out of town. he would flirt with them, make them think that when he saw them, that everything fell apart and she was the only thing that mattered to him. he would hook them, and than when he was in thier area, he would use what he wanted, and go on to the next. though by the 6th or 8th month he was doing this everyone in my small town winchester knew he did it. he was still able to pick up gurls, good gurls, and use them. GURLS ALWAYS SAY THAT THEY WANT A GUY WHO IS SENSETIVE, CARING, GENTLEMAN........ BUT THEY ALWAYS END UP DATING GUYS WHO ARE JERKS??? GO FIGURE. well i don't know how i can push this subject much more.
And now for a special, a confession. what i said earlier about becoming what u hate, i did that. 2 summers ago i went to both GSA and Russia. before i left for GSA i asked out this gurl i knew preaty well from lousville, than when i got to GSA i meet this other gurl who i thought was great, so i asked her out too, and well, i will explain her later. than when i went to russia, i meet alot of gurls there, and actually led them on alot more than i should have. i did all this, and when i retruned, i was talking with one of my best friends, this person is someone who will tell me the truth, no matter what. this person slaped me in the face and told showed me what i was doing. when i saw this, i broke relations with all of them. for weeks i had this horrible stomach cramps when i just thought of what i did. it wasn't till i begged for forgivness from each of them that i was able to forgive myself. this is my confession, and i am thankful that my trun as being what i hate is over, for now.
thanks, stayed tuned for more updates
With that short poem i start tonight, with this lesson for today. This is one i particurly hate, this is the kind of person i wish never had been born. but as i say that, i remember that at some point in your life you will become the one thing u hate the most, for at least for a momment.
#2- the PLAYERS- oh well, as i said, i hate this kind of people. They move like they own the world, walking over who ever the want. to many times i have seen a player come in, pick thier target, get whatever they want, and than leave. for some reason there are alot of guys who want to be players, mainly becuz they feel that they are going to get the upper hand on the gurls, for a short while they can control the gurl, not the other way around, like i was saying yesterday. i believe that guys who are players are in fact suffering from some kind of social attachment problem. I say this becuz they know what they do to gurls when they use them like they do, but yet they do not care cuz they feel that at some point in time it happend to them and they are trying to revenge that. they go from gurl to gurl, never staying to long, and when the get what they want, they are gone just as fast as they came. that is why
PLAYERS = CANNON BOYS
and now for the example... I remember very clearly when i was a freshman in HS. there was this guy who was a "mutual friend" to alot of people. he was what you call a "good looking guy" i geuss, or so i am told. he would go to differant youth groups and functions where gurls would be at from out of town. he would flirt with them, make them think that when he saw them, that everything fell apart and she was the only thing that mattered to him. he would hook them, and than when he was in thier area, he would use what he wanted, and go on to the next. though by the 6th or 8th month he was doing this everyone in my small town winchester knew he did it. he was still able to pick up gurls, good gurls, and use them. GURLS ALWAYS SAY THAT THEY WANT A GUY WHO IS SENSETIVE, CARING, GENTLEMAN........ BUT THEY ALWAYS END UP DATING GUYS WHO ARE JERKS??? GO FIGURE. well i don't know how i can push this subject much more.
And now for a special, a confession. what i said earlier about becoming what u hate, i did that. 2 summers ago i went to both GSA and Russia. before i left for GSA i asked out this gurl i knew preaty well from lousville, than when i got to GSA i meet this other gurl who i thought was great, so i asked her out too, and well, i will explain her later. than when i went to russia, i meet alot of gurls there, and actually led them on alot more than i should have. i did all this, and when i retruned, i was talking with one of my best friends, this person is someone who will tell me the truth, no matter what. this person slaped me in the face and told showed me what i was doing. when i saw this, i broke relations with all of them. for weeks i had this horrible stomach cramps when i just thought of what i did. it wasn't till i begged for forgivness from each of them that i was able to forgive myself. this is my confession, and i am thankful that my trun as being what i hate is over, for now.
thanks, stayed tuned for more updates
Wednesday, January 01, 2003
hello to all. i hope i have a larger group this time now that my good friend bush told everyone about me. well here we go with lession number one.
#1-GURLS- the control us in almost every way. though we don't admit it, they do. gurls have the pwer to make a guy do whatever she wants, if she plays her cards right. they have the power to either make guys feel like they are on top of the world or they can break our hearts into tiny peices, so small that it is beyond repair. this is the power weomen have over us. ( and they say gurls are the fragile ones??) well, with this GURLS= RING MASTERS
the ring masters in the circus control everything that is happing in the circus, they decided who will do what, and what will happen. that is why gurls are the ring masters, the decide who will be the lucky, or un-lucky for some, one out of all the posiblities.
i know this gurl, who after only knowing her only a week, i would have walked 10 miles to just see her, and than walk back. that may sound extreme, but it is the truth. well i did everything i could to show this gurl how i felt, that i wanted to have a deeper relationship with her. i even wrote a poem, verse by verse on post-it-notes and put it on her car, so when she came out of work, she would find it. well, she told me that it would never work mainly becuz it would be socialy un-aceptable for her to go out with a male ballet dancer ( by the way, i dance ballet, i am now a apentice pro with the lexington ballet company). with this u see how i went from feeling like i would do anything just to see her beautity, to writing about her and telling about her on the internet. ouch, that hurts me too, all well.
so there you go, and what did we learn today, GURLS = RING MASTERS
#1-GURLS- the control us in almost every way. though we don't admit it, they do. gurls have the pwer to make a guy do whatever she wants, if she plays her cards right. they have the power to either make guys feel like they are on top of the world or they can break our hearts into tiny peices, so small that it is beyond repair. this is the power weomen have over us. ( and they say gurls are the fragile ones??) well, with this GURLS= RING MASTERS
the ring masters in the circus control everything that is happing in the circus, they decided who will do what, and what will happen. that is why gurls are the ring masters, the decide who will be the lucky, or un-lucky for some, one out of all the posiblities.
i know this gurl, who after only knowing her only a week, i would have walked 10 miles to just see her, and than walk back. that may sound extreme, but it is the truth. well i did everything i could to show this gurl how i felt, that i wanted to have a deeper relationship with her. i even wrote a poem, verse by verse on post-it-notes and put it on her car, so when she came out of work, she would find it. well, she told me that it would never work mainly becuz it would be socialy un-aceptable for her to go out with a male ballet dancer ( by the way, i dance ballet, i am now a apentice pro with the lexington ballet company). with this u see how i went from feeling like i would do anything just to see her beautity, to writing about her and telling about her on the internet. ouch, that hurts me too, all well.
so there you go, and what did we learn today, GURLS = RING MASTERS
Tuesday, December 31, 2002
This is just a test to see if my blog is working
